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Introduction -- We cannot control God's hand -- How could God let this happen? -- Paradise and the paradox of suffering -- The danger of living with a God I can't figure out -- This isn't what I signed up for -- What I always feared -- Trusting God when the hope of heaven is all you have (or want) -- Can I ever trust God again? -- Getting honest with God -- Must God seem good for me to believe? -- The promise that never fails (no matter how dark the day may be) -- Why doesn't God do something (if He can)? -- Break point -- Cruel -- Could God have some purpose behind all I've been through? -- Where my future lies -- Weaned from the world -- Discovering God in the middle of my pain -- Does the rock enjoy being chiseled into a statue? -- A purpose that goes far beyond this world -- Toe-to-toe with our greatest enemy -- How can my life go on from here? -- No answer but God -- I still want answers -- The ultimate step forward -- The final chapter (in more ways than one).